During college, I was an English Literature major and there’s a literary term called the “fatal flaw.” A fatal flaw is something that aids a character in bringing about their own downfall.
While I would ideally have one fatal flaw, I have many. And do you want to take a guess as to what one of them is?
I’ve noticed recently how impatient I really am. I don’t think a day goes by without me getting impatient with someone or something.
I’ve learned that I work on my own schedule. I like to get things done when I want them done. And this leads to me getting impatient when someone doesn’t work on the same schedule as I do.
Well, this won’t work with God.
He has His own schedule. And do I know this schedule? No. I do not.
I try to come up with my own plan for things. And when they don’t work out the way that I think they should or the way I want them to, I move on to the next thing.
But I don’t think God works this way. I can see Him saying:
He has His own plan that I can’t see. While I can’t just sit back and wait for things to happen, I can work on listening to what God has to say.
And that’s another thing I struggle with: listening.
While in prayer, I so often just go through my routine: tell God what’s going on, read part of a book, read a Scripture passage, pray for my intentions, and move on to the next thing on my to-do list. And while I have made progress in my prayer, I still find that it’s mechanical and one sided.
So, I need to work on my impatience and my listening skills.
With effort, I think this can be done.
Until next time!