Back in January or February, I began veiling. What this means is that when I go into a place where Jesus is present (ie, a Chapel or a Church), I put my veil on. Below is a picture of me with my veil.
According to Veils by Lily, “The veil is meant to be an external sign of a woman’s interior desire to humble herself before God, truly present in the Blessed Sacrament. As women, we are symbols of the Church – the Bride of Christ – and “the veil is meant to be a visible reminder of the perfect submission of the Church to the loving rule of Christ.””
Even though this is the case, I still struggle with the idea and practice of veiling.
Before I began veiling, I rolled the idea of veiling around in my mind for a while, the fear of drawing attention to myself being part of my hesitation. But, when I went to a national conference held by the Fellowship of Catholic University Students (FOCUS) in January, a fellow conference attendee came up to me. She asked me if I had thought about my vocation. The reason why is because she had been sitting in a place where I was in her peripheral vision. She told me that while I was in her periphery, she thought I was a nun because she saw white around my head.
I had previously thought of going into religious life, but at that point, I didn’t think it was what God was calling me to do.
After she said this, I contemplated the meeting and decided to go ahead and buy a veil. When my veil came in, I had our campus minister/chaplain bless it for me. And I’ve been wearing it ever since.
Veils by Lily addresses this issue as well, stating: “In considering this question, the key point we should ask ourselves is, what is my motivation? Am I seeking other people’s attention or am I wanting to love and honor my Lord? Do I wish to draw attention to myself or to the reality of the Real Presence of Christ in the Eucharist?”
I have to remember what the ultimate motive for veiling is.
I continue to struggle to pay attention in Mass and veil not out of habit or want for attention. I have to remind myself that I am doing this out of respect for the Lord and His presence. I have to remind myself that I don’t want to do this for attention, but to honor God.
Even though I am likely to continue to struggle with the concept of veiling, I hope that one day, I do it purely for the right reasons.
So, until next time, lovely people!