Hello and happy Friday!
God has definitely shown Himself to my heart and my mind this week.
For the first couple of days of the week, God was teaching me about and reminding me of things related to Reconciliation.
Friday night, I was thinking about how when we go to Confession, we’re bringing all of our stuff to Jesus. And then, an image kind of clicked in my mind.
How beautiful is it that Jesus wants to take away everything that’s hurting us? He wants us to come to Him with everything, even what we’re ashamed of. He wants to take that pain away and that weight off of our shoulders.
And Jesus kept reminding me of the beauty of Confession the next day.
I went to Confession on Saturday at one of the local churches. As I was driving to Confession, Jesus reminded me of something I’ve heard before: the priest has probably heard a lot worse than what I was bringing to the confessional. And I am absolutely certain this applies to you, too.
But that wasn’t the only thing Jesus was reminding me of on Saturday.
I was in prayer in front of the Tabernacle after Confession when Jesus reminded me of something that I think is beautiful:
We may feel ashamed of our mistakes and our sins. And this shame may only get worse when we think about bringing it to God and another person.
But Jesus reminded me of something that I’d like to pass on to you:
Priests are our spiritual leaders and fathers. They want to help us get to Heaven, and they want to help us heal so that we can do just that.
And I’d like to remind you that what we bring to and say in Confession, the priest CANNOT repeat what he hears from us outside of that moment and outside of that confessional. So what we say in Confession can never be brought up outside of that confessional.
But Confession isn’t the only place God has spoken to my heart.
For pretty much the entire summer, I have been worried about what I need to be doing with my life. When I graduated from college back in May, I didn’t have a job lined up. I may have had an idea of what I wanted to do, but that ended up not coming to fruition.
And even when I created this site, I didn’t know for certain if it was going to work. And I still don’t know if it’s going to work the way I hope it will. And over the past week(s), I’ve been working on both the site and my books.
And I’ve been praying about it.
But this week has seen a change in how I go about praying about it.
In the past, I would tell God to lead me where He needs me to go. But I wouldn’t entirely mean it. I would go back fairly quickly, if not immediately, to trying to figure everything out on my own.
And that has started to change this past week. I have told God in prayer to enter my heart, help me recognize His presence in my life, and lead me where He needs me to be.
I’m beginning to open my heart and I’m beginning to let myself learn about who God is on a personal level. And I still struggle with keeping Him in mind and letting Him lead me after I’ve finished with prayer.
I grew up going to a Catholic school. And when I went to college, I was an active member of the Catholic Campus ministry. But I’m learning now that I need to have my heart open to God and I need to be willing to get to know Him for it to truly matter.
Don’t get me wrong, I know my past made me who I am today. And I loved, and still love, the Catholic Campus ministry at Murray State. And I love the people I met there and the memories I made.
I’m realizing now that I’m still at the very beginning of knowing or understanding who God is as someone who wants to know me and love me on an intimately deep level. And I still struggle in believing it.
And part of this journey is asking Him what He wants me to do and trying to hear what He has to say. And part of it is also seeing how good my life truly is despite all the anxiety that is running through my head.
And another part of it is seeing that I’m living a life that is close to the life I wanted to be living. And I think God has been slowly opening my eyes and my heart over this week to see the good and feel the peace that is already present in my life.
And while there may not be complete surety that I’m where I need to be, I do feel like I’m making my way there.
So, until next time, I hope you have a spectacular Friday and an amazing weekend!
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