Back in May, I published a post about how going to a Protestant Sunday service cemented my desire to remain Catholic.
Within the past few weeks, I’ve been reminded of why being Catholic is such an integral part of my life.
Let me give you a little bit of background info.
My work schedule changes every week. So I don’t know what shifts I’m going to work the next week until the end of the current week. With this, it can kind of be difficult to plan the Catholic part of my life. So within the past two and a halfish months, I haven’t been going to daily Mass as much. But I still have been able to fulfill my Sunday obligation, pray every day, and go to Confession when I need to.
Even though this is the case, I’ve recently gotten to where I worry about “Am I Catholic enough?”
This is something that’s incredibly important to me because during college, I was extremely involved in the Catholic community on my campus. I was involved with the Newman House all four years, and as the years went by, I became more and more involved. I attended Bible Studies, the Student Masses every Sunday night and the student dinners that would follow. I was a part of discipleship for a while. I went to FOCUS conferences all four years of college (and I even went this past year as an alum). I went to Adoration almost every week, and I even helped set it up one year. I was the Liturgical Chairperson for one and a half to two years. I even went to Daily Mass at some point every week.
Needless to say, my world was focused on my Catholicism (alongside my academics).
So transitioning to a life outside of having this supportive Catholic community that immediately within reach has been difficult. In some ways, I feel like I’ve reverted back to the way I was before college. But not entirely.
Like I said earlier, I fulfill my Sunday and Holy Day obligations, I pray every day, and I go to Confession when I need to. And this is more than I did college.
And that question of “Am I Catholic enough” still plagues my mind because my prayer isn’t always the best and I more often than not pray the minimum amount that the USCCB recommends (15 – 20 minutes every day) in one of their examinations of conscience. And the amount of times I’ve gone to Adoration or Daily Mass is tiny compared to when I was in college.
But I have to remind myself of a few things.
First, when I enter a church building for Mass, I still feel like I’m home. Like I belong there. Especially at my home parish.
Secondly, I have to remind myself that I’m not where I was in my faith when I was in high school. My time in college and at Newman helped me make my faith an important part of my life. Which it wasn’t overly important to me when I was in high school.
Thirdly, a Catholic’s faith doesn’t just happen in the walls of a church building. It also happens out in the world in what we do, what we say, what we take in, who we interact with, and how we interact with others. Yes, the time we spend in a church is important, but so is what we do outside of that building that reflects the faith we proclaim inside.
I hope that if you struggle with your faith like I do, these things can help you. And I hope that I’m able to remember them as well.
Until next time!