I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to share with you guys today. So I figured I’d share this with you: the peace I’ve been feeling here recently.
I wouldn’t think that I would find peace in times of uncertainty like this. But I have.
I’ve been promoted at work. I’ve been worried about my cat in her old age. I’ve been worried about my dog. I’ve been worried about not reading as much. I’ve been trying to balance so much that I feel like it could all fall apart at any second.
But amidst it all, I’ve been able to experience moments of peace. Peace in thinking that I’m where I need to be. Peace in knowing that I have possibilities for my future. Peace in knowing that my work situation isn’t going to be as toxic anymore (hopefully). Peace in knowing I’ve got a family that loves me. Peace in walking my dog. Peace in seeing the light and feeling the fall breeze.
And I don’t think that I’ve gotten to this kind of peace on my own.
I think this is God’s way of letting me know that my prayers have been heard. His way of letting me know that I’m not alone. His was of letting me know that He’s working on answering my prayers.
There are still going to be a lot of moments when I’m uncertain. Moments when I feel so tired I can’t continue on. Moments when my anxiety and depression will make it nearly impossible to see the light. Moments when I’ll think everything’s falling apart.
But these brief moments of peace are tiny treasures that I’ll have to focus on. That I’ll have to remember and hold close to my heart.
Until next time!